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Sunday, December 20, 2015

the spirit

when you eat sad food
you just feel sad
so, maybe it's that sandwich i just ate.
the cafe smelled weird, but i was just too hungry
too much meat

or maybe it's that thing they call the "Christmas Spirit"
i certainly haven't felt much of that yet

maybe it's the promise of a cold New York Winter

or just thinking about going back to work

maybe it's money; or lack there of
or, maybe somehow it has something to do with my Father whom hasn't even bothered to learn about his beautiful new grand daughter
 which, anyway,
is his loss.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

white ice-cream on your bottom lip (and a lavender sprinkle in the corner of your mouth)

 these females drivin me crazy
    with too many problems
  the men on the floor turned into
       shadows
      while the women held court on the hallway
       floor, pillows and all
  swapping stories about how to 
   fend off thieves in the night, at the shelters;
      with a bar of soap in your pillow-case.

 last night i gave nadine the most beautiful pillow-case
   with embossed white stripes
  i thought she'd like it.
   something beautiful in that stinking place
    the sharpness of the disinfectant only masking
        the smell of shit..ever present.

she told me she cries every day
  about having hiv, which she got from a dirty tattoo needle
      her kids don't know, but her old man says
          give it to me because i wanna die with you mamma

   she runs around the unit with her tranny sister juliet
     and they share xanex and talk
       about their secrets in spanish.


 
    (names changed to protect the innocents)

 

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

dear jimmy (jimbo)



i wonder if you remember her sometimes....
   the little one, big smiles, blue eyes like yours and flaxen hair.
    maybe you look at the little golden curled, angel faced german bred boys....
   perhaps that's when you see her.
 will you be, as rip van-winkle arriving in the door
   much older, grayer?
 perhaps this will be the time they'll get to know of their
   long lost sister. she loves them, like
   a sister who does not know her brothers-
            only imagining them.

       you must know it's time,
             time
  to dissolve that pit of anger you've held onto for so long.
 i imagine you have it hidden away, so far away where-
    you don't even know it's there.
   jimmy-
       sometimes she wants to become you when she looks at old photos.
        grinning, pock-faced, shaggy-sandy coloured hair all in your eyes.
 she wishes she knew you then.
 she wishes to go back in time-
 only to eradicate the source of your bitterness....
 and perhaps, still know you today.
  grinning and cracking jokes.