i found a bunch of writings from my teen/young adult years today.
here's the few that struck me as..not so bad.
2-6-00
I can see it. It's an image that's always with me.
Reaching far back into my childhood during
long car rides home at night.
The shadow of my being
descending ascending fluctuating
with the light from street lights as we pass.
Just like my moods,
ever changing.
It is a constant vision of comfort I can rely on,
even in these crazy days.
This shadow of me on the back of the seat.
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wow....
i thought i smelled it (you)
and then i did see
wisteria blooming
showing your (her) self off
for the spring (time)
with fig in my teeth
and my hair all a mess
i like riding up the street the wrong way.
sometimes to swim through your
waters it's murky.
i always know there is a gleaming light.
p.s.
i love rocky balboa
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
from 5-24-1999, retrospectively titled "ode to my favourite colour"
sea-foam green-like the waves that
the little mermaid frolicked in sea-foam
like what she turned into her black hair
swirling-sea green and blue like
aunt karen's old bathroom wallpaper
mermaids again in a psychedelic swirl
of green, silver, white and blue could've
lived in that room with those beautiful
sea creatures for company just staring
at the walls..... crayons, sea-foam
green was always a loud color but pretty and creamy
yet bold and industrial all at once
pointed crayon brand new waxy crayon
Monday, August 13, 2012
on the way to cape may
ring a bell to find you
in a secret place,
somewhere where you have no fear.
maybe this is where you wish to find me.
no map for taking the first step into
this nebula(ous) space
high-pitched ringing in the darkness
pushes
carries through
pierces the black places.
just to dredge and keep dredging for
raw knowledge
and through murky sediment, there will be not
a shiny perfect pearl
but a blemished
pitted pearl.
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by the sea with salt water lapping at me and the sun close to setting we walk and find shells, no remembrance of a conversation
but i was thinking of mermaids and of
my life, before this life.
in a secret place,
somewhere where you have no fear.
maybe this is where you wish to find me.
no map for taking the first step into
this nebula(ous) space
high-pitched ringing in the darkness
pushes
carries through
pierces the black places.
just to dredge and keep dredging for
raw knowledge
and through murky sediment, there will be not
a shiny perfect pearl
but a blemished
pitted pearl.
**************************************************************************************************************************
by the sea with salt water lapping at me and the sun close to setting we walk and find shells, no remembrance of a conversation
but i was thinking of mermaids and of
my life, before this life.
Friday, August 10, 2012
remember
economy of living, these days has taught me much.
one sack of cherries appears as a bag overflowing with pure
gold.
aromas have served to quench desires of consuming. a lesson
which is important for one to learn.
a pleasure very small, very simple will fill my day full of light.
finding my joy in the slow drawl just before it all will become
very fast.
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
cat piss and flowers
seems indicative of a summertime coming in texas as biking
down these streets you'll encounter wafting into your
nostrils. and spilled and stale beer that too mixed up
with mimosa trees and yuccas that were once poised to burst with
their very lives and all.
and all a head full of crying and some grass to lie in.
iced tea with lime slices on porches while branches threaten to
push through screens. and then do i feel (do i feel?)
most serene.
what do they do?
do your ghosts love you?
or, do your ghosts haunt you?
or, do your ghosts haunt you?
i once saw this piece of art. the image does not remain with me as much as the words printed onto it;
"you are all of the bad things you have ever done and you are all of the good things you have ever done"
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
swimming
beauty can engulf you.
the state of being drowned by the senses can take over, daily, if you allow them to.
lost in light and texture. sound and air.
you will find me there.
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