the spirit

when you eat sad food
you just feel sad
so, maybe it's that sandwich i just ate.
the cafe smelled weird, but i was just too hungry
too much meat

or maybe it's that thing they call the "Christmas Spirit"
i certainly haven't felt much of that yet

maybe it's the promise of a cold New York Winter

or just thinking about going back to work

maybe it's money; or lack there of
or, maybe somehow it has something to do with my Father whom hasn't even bothered to learn about his beautiful new grand daughter
 which, anyway,
is his loss.